Memorium for the Passing Year

tonight, i cast off my sobriety
to revel in the mysteries of the night
magic tricks in the mind of a dancer
that has long courted words

what is passing has been good,
tomorrow it will have been good
I cannot argue with has happened
it did, for it was, without any prompting
on my part, only a certain lust to keep living

there are moments where reflection is difficult to bear
there are moments where smiles place themselves upon our lips
i think of you, often, many times a day
i would keep you were you to be mine to keep

but alas we are but tiny atoms soon to be blasted
deep into the memories of a time long to come
i have read the books again dear friend, i have marveled
at the words and images long held sacred, i speak our language once more

if we are to pass this midnight without the graces
of our mutual touch, then let me kiss your lips with my fingers
let us remember the madness that chases and binds us towards
many happy returns

Thoughts From the Leaf Game (41)

1. Oilers score first and Toronto once again concedes the first goal.

2. The Oilers look feisty tonight, playing with lots of gusto.

3. The Leafs look like shells, they are getting totally outplayed by the Oilers

4. A goal from Kessel in the third ends his scoring slump. He's been M.I.A lately.

5. That being said it was a goal a too little too late as the Leafs played like garbage tonight. PLus he was one-upped by O'Sullivan who had two goals and was the better American tonight.

6. Way to play the last game of 2009 boys, here'as hoping 2010 is much kinder not just to the team but to its long suffering adn insufferable fans.

Memories of my Dreams

A few nights ago I had this dream. I was on a field trip, at my present age with Mr. Duwyn who was my 6th and 8th grade teacher. There were many other people on teh field trip and we went somewhere downtown by TTC. Mr Duwyn looked the age he was when he was teaching me at middle school (it has been almost 15 years since I saw him last).

That is all I remember of the dream. When I initially woke from the dream it was quite vivid and lucid, and I then went to the bathroom and drank some water, came back to bed and slept some more. When I woke up again, the dream was still qutie vivid though it was losing some its tone and shape in my mind. I kept promising myself I would write it down soon to capture it. I again went to the bathroom, brushed and did morning stuff, had tea and an apple and in that span of time the dream began to escape, getting thinner and thinnger until I could only remember what I wrote above.

I also felt a deep sense of longing, wistfulness and nostalgia tied to the dream. As I forgot the dream the feelings seemed to intensity in inverse proportion to the details I was letting slip away.

I came to the following thought:

I was in a state of longing, wistfulness and nostalgia for a dream that I was losing rather than the how the content of the dream provoked me to react. That deep sense of longing and trying in wretched earnestness to reclaim my memory was now superimposed upon the loss of the actual dream itself rather than the dream.

I had in effect, retro-inferred my emotions of losing the dream onto the small content of the dream I had salvaged in my memory.

Perhaps then the dream above is not at all (other than Mr.Duwyn and a field trip) any sort of truth at all. Perhaps it is just as false as my emotions and equally dependent on my own whimsy and regard for survival.

-s

Thoughts From the Leaf Game (40)

1. A rare Sunday evening game has the Leafs scoring a rare first goal by Luke Schenn, himself quite rare in the goals department. Good Start

2. And the Penguins tie up shortly thereafter. By the end of the first the Leafs are up one again on a Stempniak goal.

3. Crosby ties it up again partway through the second. Looks like a back and forth game between both teams.

4. Both teams trade goals late in the third, and both goalies are standing on their heads trying to give their teams the edge...

5. That being said, Ian White with a screaming, water bottle popping shot continues his stellar play and the Leafs close this one out nicely.

6. Great, entertaining game, back and forth with a much needed victory for the Leafs after a string of losses.

Thoughts From the Leaf Game (39)

1. When you give up the first goal (again) to start the game and to the much maligned Scott Gomez no less, a long night might be in store

2. Montreal scores another goal shortly after Gomez's Powerplay marker and the Habs are up 2-0 n the first. Yeesh.

3. The Leafs have really been taking it to the Habs since going down two. They should have at least 5 goals now but for the superb play of Halak backstopping the Habs.

4. Ian White brings them to within one and Jason Blake ties the game early in the third. Both have been playing well lately and Ian White's contract is rising day by day...

5. That being said how come this team is so lousy at playing 4 on 4? Overtime has not been kind to the Leafs and once more shows haughty disdain for the Leafs tonight.

6. Again they got another point but after outplaying the Habs for most of the night and having momentum on their side, they fall short in Overtime. Like Ian White, Halak has certainly increased his stock value of late and this game was a showpiece for him.

Weather Report (one christmas eve)

there is a light dusting of snow on the pavement
sprinkled earlier when it looked like they were tiny
stars falling to earth when heaven opened
we look forward to the promises of the morning
it is warmer tonight than it has been in some days

Thoughts From the Leaf Game (38)

1. 0-0 after the first, we are thankful for small things

2. Two quick goals midway through the second have the Isles in full control of this game.

3. After two periods the Leafs look like they are in tough for the third

4. Quick goal by Hagman to start the third chagnes the complexion of the game...

5. That being said, some secondary scoring seems to be taking an early christmas vacation of late

6. An empty netter by the Isles and this game is done. Not the strongest effort tonight and the Leafs fall back into a swoon